system failure

at the sight of you, i stop thinking straight. my parallel processing crumbles. i don’t know what i should do next, what i should do now, or what i should be doing. nothing makes sense. i might as well blurt out “sheringapoting” because i’m completely cluless, like a little child dropped in the middle of a stock exchange – so overwhelmed with the volume of useless information, or maybe useful i dont know -

well how am i supposed to know, i just had a system failure!

rerouting all my power to my secondary fail safe measures, im only barely able to escape this ..what do i call it, “phenomenon”? relying on instincts alone, without any thought of consequences, or strategic planning, how do i get out of those situations, i really have no idea. only later after i recover, i hide my face in a hole, coming up with ways in which i can avert the already struck disaster. futile, really.

i’m kind of confused now; running amock like a crazy toon whose head is on fire. i know i’ll recover in the next few minutes. but that’s besides the point.

what really worries and troubles me, is that how, can i possibly stop these recurring system failures at the very sight of you? i wont run away, so i have no choice but to face you head on. if only my instincts work, i’ll train them. next time, it shall be different~