us and them

judgement and negativity

sumone — Sun, 28 Nov 2010 21:17:48 +0000

do you like to talk a lot? or are you the silent type?

kbai

c’mon, dont hate me
lol

i dont hate you i just dont like negative people, lifes too short =)

are you saying i’m one of the negative people?
and did you imply that you dont like me?

how are you? i shifted to smalltalk, for i didn’t know what to say next.

people who claim they like open mindedness and think one shouldn’t judge other people (or pass jud\egment) are often very negative, and tend to simply assume attributes of another, which they further assume are correct, and believe they are absolute. he/she will never change in his/her eyes. the judged human, will never change in the eyes and heart of the one passing the judgement.

and often there are some people, persistent. they stick to their cause. they believe in their hearts, some of them i’m sure, i try to be persistent, but i don’t really believe in my heart, or head for the matter. the heart is an organ, but also is a word used to refer to the more humane heart, sometimes referred to as the soul. those of them who believe, are often successful, but then there are also the ones who aren’t successful.

Negativity, on the other hand, and then some on the same hand, is an innate attribute. they are pessimists, who hate people who are pessimists, like a pessimist hates everything (note, its not “everything else”). and often they end up, finding the negatives in themselves too, and eventually, without even realizing it, starts hating themselves, body and soul. some realize what they are doing and are lesser few are able to reverse themselves out of this evil conditioning, bless them Allah.

later. lost me thoughts.

why our music limits us

sumone — Sat, 03 Jul 2010 21:38:35 +0000

i was just listening to some good violin. i’d recommend this track to anyone, its called “First of May”. dunno who played though. nevertheless, it was a great all violin instrumental, with a little bit of guitar, some piano, and a bit of drums. but i wanted the violin only :S

so i tweaked my equaalizeer, and set it to cut out the bass (base, whatever you pronounce it as). that mostly eliminated the drums. i amped the mid range, and little bit of low to ensure i kept the G-string alive. some more tuning and it was great. i set the volume to a decent high, and whoa

my every nerve resonated to the violin. i could feel, i was being swept away by the highs and low. it made me not want to do anything, and enjoy the “buzz”

then it struck me; and that’s exactly where the problem was.

why does this only happen with “classical” instruments in the “classical” songs? why do i enjoy Neil Young’s “Cortez the Killer” more than Pete’s No. 1′s “Always”?

Mainstream music, perhaps more of the “trend” that’s been evolving for the last five or so years, is heavily focused on one aspect only. It is popularly referred to as “Beat”.

The one thing that makes a song sell now, is that 2 second sound that loops endlessly till the song ends. It is that single 4 note “catchy tune” that takes a song deep into our hearts, and up high in the charts.

It’s a system that is repetitive, and monotonous. It lacks variation. It has no personality. It isn’t a creative form of expression anymore. Only a means of advertisement, and promotion of the latest trends, that they would like us to adopt. It’s a propaganda thing. It’s Entertainment.

our ears are receptive to noises between 20hz and 20khz. that’s what should have been, but thanks to what we listen to, we hardly ever test our limits. thus, we soon lose the ability to clearly distinguish sounds from a plethora of origins, and can’t sense direction soon after. our ability to hear degenerates as our ears don’t need them anymore. we are robbed of our birthright.

the right to use the full extent of our listening skills. with brains as complex as ours, and 90% capacity untapped, the teachers should have never had to say “please speak one at a time”. they could all scream and shout, but our ear would be able to listen to every single one of then voices. at the very least, with two ears, we should be able to listen to two different persons screaming two different things at the same time.

unfortunately, since whatever we listen to only teaches us to pay attention to useless detail, and only of them at a time, our ability to process is reduced to 10%. that is how badly it limits us. it even teaches us to listen to what’s obviously not out in nature, but to something that we rarely encounter out in the open.

classical instruments, however, are like spirits of nature. they are like crystal materialization of resonance. it hits every being of us who also happen to be of nature. it soothes us, helps us attune to nature.

when attuned to nature, we finally start to explore that 90% that remains untapped. because that 90% is the subconscious – something you are not granted access to, till you prove yourself worthy. you have to earn it to deserve it. it is the control panel for your body, the central command. it makes you walk without worrying about all the gritty details; it is that good. you don’t deserve access till you realize it exists. our system is designed as such, that it keeps us from realizing that we can indeed access the subconscious and perhaps extend our limits; and it does a very good job.

lol goodnight!

Adobe on MAC

sumone — Mon, 22 Mar 2010 15:54:37 +0000

Getting a MAC is one thing, getting software for it is another. I was surprised how people around the world would go so far to use pirated software. While I was looking around Adobe CS4 for MAC, I found this guy who disabled his internet just to stop online activations! The era of offline activation has ended because its just too risky with cracks and patches, but even in this era of online activation, people use offline computers!

With this snippet of code at the Terminal, you give TextEdit sudo persmission (“administrative” rights), to edit your hosts file on MAC.

sudo /Applications/TextEdit.app/Contents/MacOS/TextEdit /etc/hosts

There, you add the following entries to redirect any outgoing adobe connections to your local IP.

127.0.0.1 activate.adobe.com
127.0.0.1 practivate.adobe.com
127.0.0.1 ereg.adobe.com
127.0.0.1 activate.wip3.adobe.com
127.0.0.1 wip3.adobe.com
127.0.0.1 3dns-3.adobe.com
127.0.0.1 3dns-2.adobe.com
127.0.0.1 adobe-dns.adobe.com
127.0.0.1 adobe-dns-2.adobe.com
127.0.0.1 adobe-dns-3.adobe.com
127.0.0.1 ereg.wip3.adobe.com
127.0.0.1 activate-sea.adobe.com
127.0.0.1 wwis-dubc1-vip60.adobe.com
127.0.0.1 activate-sjc0.adobe.com

Supposedly, adding anywhere between localhost and broadbandhost works!

truth

sumone — Fri, 19 Mar 2010 19:05:22 +0000

that’s not it. that’s not it at all. i dont like you. associating with you is a pain. your ways disgust me. i find no meaningfulness in it at all. you are pretty useless. and i’m better than you, but not when it comes to the things you do; i don’t do them, as they are most often of no benefit. we are different, and you are sadly far down below. you don’t deserve it. you are not worth it. i doubt you’d ever be useful. if that day ever comes, i’ll probably not consider it.

i don’t like you. your methods, ways, and you- disgust me. you get what you deserve.

i don’t want to.

maybe that’s not it. enough time wasted; ttyl.

How to run The Witcher in Windows 7

sumone — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 05:27:04 +0000

I looked around everywhere on the internet, looking for a way to run The Witcher on Windows 7; but alas, one website alone could not give me the complete solution. It was only with their power combined, Captain Planet could save the day.

I have a 3.4GHz Pentium D processor, on a D945GNT board and 1.5GB RAM; and for graphics, a XFX 8600GT XXX Edition 256MB card. I play The Witcher just fine on my Windows 7 computer, with occasional crashes after very long hours of gameplay. I traced the problem to “running out of memory” of some kind. There’s a link to a HOTFIX for Vista for this problem, but Microsoft claims they solved the issue on Windows 7. So maybe I run out of some other memory.

But thanks to Witchers creative autosave, every time the game crashed, I didn’t lose much gameplay.

The only reason why Witcher wouldn’t run on Windows 7 is because of TAGES Copy Protection being not compatible with Windows 7. So go to http://www.tagesprotection.com/ and download the latest Tages driver compatible with Windows 7. Install it, and launch witcher. Use the launcher, or the executable inside the system folder, or was it the bin folder. Nevertheless, the launcher is quick and easy.

The 1.5 patch at thewitcher.com should remove the need for the DVD being in the drive, and also remove tages protection. To go for 1.5, you’d need to install 1.4 patch first. It’s pretty huge (990MB+) if I remember right. I installed 1.1a and 1.2 patches, and got the game working. I also installed GamesForWindows from Microsoft, hoping that would solve my earlier problems, but I don’t think that helped.

If you STILL have problems, get the mini image from gamecopyworld.com, and mount using daemon tools lite, or any application of your choice. This game has no cracks yet, and the no-dvd crack at gamecopyworld didn’t work for me.

one of these days

sumone — Sun, 03 Jan 2010 17:30:19 +0000

the soft piano on the b/g is soothing. “there are days, when I feel..” – emo. now it’s “Killswitch Engage”. its lame. if only he didn’t pretend he was suffocating.

that’s why i love cowboy bebop. its got a touch of reality, flows fine with plenty of variations – “the real life blues”.

“Happiness is just a word to me, and it might have meant a thing or two if i had known the difference.. Emptiness, a lonely parody, and my life, another smokin’ gun, a sign of my indifference..”

Truth be told, I’m only rather beating about the bush. I don’t feel like going back to researching e-comm. Why am I letting this bother me? This being the events that transpired a while ago. I called the Noor, she was halfway inside the computer. I had nothing to say. Is that it?

But now I have set myself a trap. Led myself into it too! Desperation is not it, more of stupidity. I am indeed low on nicotine. But this piano piece “Eyes on me”, some variation of it anyway, is far too nice! Twas Utada Hikaru’s take on it; marvelous!

i win.

sumone — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 17:23:49 +0000

status checks. i told you i’d call, but i will be a little late, and i didn’t want to catch you sleeping. so i sent you a text asking when you’ll be hitting the hay. hitting the hay, i believe, means going to bed. you did not reply.

so you were busy and forgot. plausible.

then i called you, as promised. its been 45 minutes, no hint of you. i’ll text you one last time before i hit the hay.

the plan to keep trying for a couple of times, and then stop. if you are least bothered, fine then. its 85% likely that you will lose either way.

out of credit

sumone — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 11:02:05 +0000

my last words were, something along the lines of, just try to have fun and things will sort themselves out. don’t worry too much about it, its not the end of the world. so have fun, and enjoy what you are doing. that will do.

but that doesn’t mean you get to engrossed in “fun” fun, and forget what your true objective is. you need to have fun, and enjoy, not just randomly, but while you are doing what you are doing. if you enjoy what you are doing, and feel the need to get better and better, you’ll get there.

but if you don’t like what you are doing, and doing it just for the sake of it, (because someone asked you to, or you get benefits), you’ll never be as good.

so first you need to feel the need to excel at something you like doing. if you enjoy it, you are more likely to eradicate your “mental block” (eg. im no good, i just can’t, its impossible! etc. etc.) or never feel a mental block in the first place.

be yourself. be original.

if you don’t know what “original” is, or you feel you can’t be original – the feeling part is a mental blockade. it’ll limit you, and hinder your progress. as for original, as long as you are you, not succumbing to the “needs” and demands of the world, you are original. if you see someone doing the same things as you, they are not being themselves and stealing the stuff off of you.

have confidence.

know that you are right. but don’t be stubborn, and/or arrogant. stubbornness and arrogance (ego inclusive) is the highway to hindered success, and eventually leads to failure. having confidence is simply to have an open mind, and not doubting yourself. if someone says “fuck you, you are so wrong!”, approach them peacefully, with an objective to learn. that’s the “backlash wave” – send their evil right back at them. if he’s dumbstruck and can’t present anything, he’s scared because your confidence makes his willies shiver.

don’t look for anyone to look up to. be what others look up to.

don’t think how to solve a problem. think while you are approaching the problem.

thinking how to solve a problem, find a solution, kill a person, etc. is a complete waste of time. run simulations inside your head if the problem is out of solving reach right now. chewing bubble gum, and/or thinking, won’t solve a problem. only by solving it can you solve it.

be proactive. think ahead.

make plans. run simulations. don’t leave room for error. one approach is to generalize solutions, that is of course leaving room for unique problem parameters.

do things that lift you up. if you can’t, you need to get more confidence, and start believing in yourself.

believe in yourself.

that’s perhaps one of the more important things, if not the most important thing. you will be whatever you believe to be. if you believe you can jump to the moon, and you jump, and you are not on the moon, don’t even get the thought for a second you can’t get to the moon. you probably need more leg muscles, and a jump booster. a space suit too.

when you jumped and failed, you faced a problem. first step to solve a problem, is to understand the problem, and not trying again. second step is making adjustments. third step is trying again. you cannot jump steps.

know your limits.

you need to know your limits, to be at the limits, and only then can you surpass them.

know yourself.

if you don’t know what you are dealing with, its dangerous and often futile – ie. to generally no benefit. you are always dealing with yourself. so know yourself, to get the best out of yourself.

know the fine line between confidence and arrogance.

confidence is one of the few ways to survive on this planet, when everything around you is a measure to put you down. i repeat, confidence (believing in yourself, and your abilities) is one of the few ways to get by in this world, while everything around you is arrogantly trying to put you down.

arrogance, is what puts you down. arrogance is not for you. arrogance belongs only to the master of probability, the decider, without whom you wouldn’t exist. if you think it belongs to your parents, you need to develop the ability to think ahead for more than one step.

think. count. look ahead, not only what is directly in front of you, but what is behind the thing that is in front of you, and behind that and behind that, and so on. very soon you will hit a wall. you need to break that wall and move on further. its a recursive thing.

i thought i should explain myself, but i don’t want to kill you. this is only how i feel, and how i do things. all of what i wrote, is me.

on the next post,

is that out of your league, or
are you out of that’s league, or is that out of your league?

resolve

sumone — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 06:12:19 +0000

overcome the monster, embrace the light, and laugh at the face of adversaries, only to strike them with bravery, might and whole lot of fun.

while that forms a great resolve, i have something even better. but the limitations of human vocabulary do not allow me to communicate this to you, and if when i try, it will cause discrepancies, and errors in transmission

the last bit kind of reminded me of sth i’m compelled to write. i <3 melancholy of haruhi suzumiya. one of the best animes i’v seen come out this/last year. the story seems very simple, and the airing schedule will confuse a simpleton, but it’s deep and loads of fun. to have given rise to “haruhi-ism”, The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya, is indeed something, and is definitely worth checking out. Consider another fact, they re-released the older episodes again this year, with 1 or 2 new eps i think, and its still a Big Hit. there has to be something in that anime. <3 nagato

well that’s that. i had food poisoning; wonder what i ate. on the first day, they barged (out); second, they banged; today, they’r still knocking. to the wonderful people who invited me to eat outside, i shall get back to thee as soon as my stomach finishes punishing me.

system failure

sumone — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 16:18:59 +0000

at the sight of you, i stop thinking straight. my parallel processing crumbles. i don’t know what i should do next, what i should do now, or what i should be doing. nothing makes sense. i might as well blurt out “sheringapoting” because i’m completely cluless, like a little child dropped in the middle of a stock exchange – so overwhelmed with the volume of useless information, or maybe useful i dont know -

well how am i supposed to know, i just had a system failure!

rerouting all my power to my secondary fail safe measures, im only barely able to escape this ..what do i call it, “phenomenon”? relying on instincts alone, without any thought of consequences, or strategic planning, how do i get out of those situations, i really have no idea. only later after i recover, i hide my face in a hole, coming up with ways in which i can avert the already struck disaster. futile, really.

i’m kind of confused now; running amock like a crazy toon whose head is on fire. i know i’ll recover in the next few minutes. but that’s besides the point.

what really worries and troubles me, is that how, can i possibly stop these recurring system failures at the very sight of you? i wont run away, so i have no choice but to face you head on. if only my instincts work, i’ll train them. next time, it shall be different~